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Awakened to love, awakened to unconditional love in the purest form.

13 days ago, I started a new journey, I was full of expectations, you know have a checklist ready of what you want out of something and making sure that you get what you have “paid for” that was my thinking right, then I got blown away, I started this journey unsure of myself, not knowing who I am anymore, being pulled here and there doing what people wanted me to do and it all seemed OK at that time when I just “went with the flow of things”. No doubt I loved serving people making a difference and that validated me in some bizarre way, but when I stepped into that training room full of strangers not knowing anyone I made a promise to myself that I will give 100% and I will just be me, the Zenneline I know.

I instantly connected with someone and I just trusted my unconscious mind all the way, I received the most amazing love from all of the people in the room and we built Rapport instantly and it was amazing, no expectations of wanting to be loved just a profound sense that that love was present, while walking this morning God gave me the revelation of that 8 days I spent at Evolved Coaching Training and that is, that He used a certain someone to bestow on me the love of God, I never knew that I was loved so much by God, God said to me this morning in His still small voice that everything I have experienced from the beginning of this friendship was all Him showing me the possibilities of having someone love me and He said "This is how much I love you, my child you need not prove to me that you deserve my love, I love you anyway, just as you are and I want you to be the best you can be to stay true to who you are deep down inside and trust me to lead you, trust me to take you to your destiny.”

This friendship has restored my sense of purpose, my sense of value as a person, it has restored my self respect, it has really made me whole just as God had ordained long ago, I have been restored to the fullest, I never imagined that I am worthy of love, I never knew that I could be loved without having to give something in return, I could never just be me and receive freely what God gives us daily His undivided attention, through this friendship God has shown me that I am the apple of His eye, that I am worthy of nothing but the best, God has shown me that I can do all things for He has placed that inside of me everything I need to achieve is inside of me and I just have to dig deep inside and give all of me. I am honored to know that some people come into our lives and when we are awake in that present we find those things that God wants us to learn and that makes a profound difference, I am loved and it is awesome, not man’s love but God’s love the purest of them all.

I thank you friend for allowing God to use you as His instrument, this journey has made me whole and I am excited for new beginnings…Awakened to Love, that is what I am!!

Happy holidays!!

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