Expressions of Myself

Today I am finished with my 6 month TB treatment, I am grateful to God for His healing hand on my life and for carrying me through the worst time I have ever experienced physically, this road wasn’t easy yet I am still standing, there were times that I was so weak and I couldn’t even walk properly let alone go to work. Its 6 month later and I am standing strong, I am breathing properly I am laughing and the coughs are gone, so is the night sweats. Why am I sharing my story today because I want to glorify God in all His splendour. “We have overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our TESTIMONY” (Revelation 12:11) Although I really don’t feel much triumph today because a friend of mine had a relapse and she suffers from spinal TB. I want to rejoice with all my heart but my heart is breaking for all that she is enduring, the word of God says “we should mourn with those who mourn…” (Romans 12:15) I would like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone who supported me in ...

Don't associate with people you can't trust. Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend. Don't dictate because you are smarter. Don't demand because you are stronger. Don't date because you are desperate. Don't marry because you are miserable. Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior. Don't philander because you think you are irresistible. Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better. Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder. Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals. Don't stagnate! Don't regress. Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back. Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right. Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking. Learn a new skill. Find a new friend. Start a new career. Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's mor...

I love catching up with old friends it was great to speak to one of my old friends this morning, weird how one can forget how people sound but when you hear their voices it warms your heart. Friends are near and dear when we want them to be, sometimes catching up is good for the soul, sometimes we don’t realize the value people have in our lives, and I am always reminded of value these days, friendships with substance is very rare, we are in a world where people use people for personal gain, yet very few have friends who really are there for them through it all, reminds me of Jesus the forever friend always there when we need him even when we cant face ourselves because of the things we have done wrong and us keeping our distance from him, yet he remains faithful to us in our unfaithfulness… God has me on a journey of self discovery, a journey to start a fresh and it’s scary but I am willing to go through it because “obedience is better than sacrifice”. I have had this sentence in my h...

Yesterday we had our Spring Queen, it was the first one after 17 years, the whole event was planned 3 weeks prior and although there were many hick ups in the end everything came together, we hardly ever see our BIG Boss and for me it was awesome to spend a view brief moments with him. I was just reminded of the acronym for TEAM (TOGETHER, EVRYONE, ACHIEVES, MORE) the whole event wouldn’t been possible if everyone didn’t work together, the small little bits that one or many contributed made a huge impact. Beauty pageants make us uncomfortable because it is very much of the outward appearance and yesterday I saw how God restored SELF CONFIDENCE in our ladies that took part of the whole show, I was one of them and it was AMAZING. I was reminded of the Spirit of UBUNTU “I am because WE ARE”, we encouraged each other, our smiles were contagious and there was just so much love going around, I felt a part of a big family the RW Design Family. I saw people putting themselves(EGO)away for the ...

I believe everything happens for a reason we must just be awake in the moment to appreciate it all, these last two weeks random things happen, excuse my lack of ignorance if the word random is too common, let me say extraordinary moments has happened and I obliged. Last week I wrote a blog on you have a VOICE and moments later I find myself in a secret group on Facebook called Abuse No more, I didn’t question it I just went with the flow wondering what God is up to… Yesterday I met a lady by the name Zanele, who works for an NPO, she volunteers there and she asked me some hard questions, that left me somewhat startled but led me to find answers for myself. Today I popped into the Central Library wanting reserve a book that Zanele recommended Steven Covey’s 8 th Habit, I went to the Library with the intention to reserve the book because the lady I spoke to before I made my way to the Library said they didn’t have it in, but they did. Before I could find that out, I bumped into another...

My Mother Babsie & my late brother Vernon Today my dear brother Vernon Marques Mouton has passed on 8 years, he leaves behind a son who is the picture of him in everything that he does and participate in. This time of the year I know my Mom is a bundle of emotions, so is my sister and my baby brother but in the busy-ness of all our lives I felt the need today to acknowledge my brother Vernon . He had this passion for singing, he even entered in Idols SA one year and went as far as the auditions, at that time I thought WOW he has courage but also such immense belief in his ability to sing and compete among so many. Vernon I miss you and I miss the fact that I couldn't say goodbye properly but I WANT TO TELL YOU TODAY, that your son is your gift to us. Every moment I get to spend with him is like you are with me there, Ashton and I we have this thing where he can speak to me in whichever way he wants but remain his respect for me, Ashton has become a part of our family and my gir...

I try to reach out for you but I fall Sometimes you seem so close and yet so far Oh I need another chance I need to know your mercy Just give me the strength to change within I know that I am not all that I can be My weakness seems to get the best of me But as long as you are here I know that I will make it Every step along the way Please hear my prayer Refrain A heart like yours, is my desire A heart like yours, is what I am searching for Full of compassion, nothing wrong within Please hear me Lord, give me a heart like yours So much grace, so much kindness So much faith, for ever true  Strong as the wind, soft as the shadows If just once, I could be like you Refrain A heart like yours, is my desire  A heart like yours, is what I am searching for Full of compassion, nothing wrong within Please hear me Lord, give me a heart like yours Please hear me Lord, give me a heart like yours (2x) The above song touched me so much in Church yesterday, two of the ladies in our worship tea...