How many facets do you possess?

I believe everything happens for a reason we must just be awake in the moment to appreciate it all, these last two weeks random things happen, excuse my lack of ignorance if the word random is too common, let me say extraordinary moments has happened and I obliged. Last week I wrote a blog on you have a VOICE and moments later I find myself in a secret group on Facebook called Abuse No more, I didn’t question it I just went with the flow wondering what God is up to…

Yesterday I met a lady by the name Zanele, who works for an NPO, she volunteers there and she asked me some hard questions, that left me somewhat startled but led me to find answers for myself. Today I popped into the Central Library wanting reserve a book that Zanele recommended Steven Covey’s 8^th Habit, I went to the Library with the intention to reserve the book because the lady I spoke to before I made my way to the Library said they didn’t have it in, but they did. Before I could find that out, I bumped into another person Khalil who seems to be on the same journey as I am discovering who I am, why I am here and where I am going, we briefly exchanged stories and we parted ways. I then made my way to the Librarian who informed me they do have the book and I went to fetch it.

I have learned a few things in these two encounters let me break it down like this and this is my revelation, I have been writing for a while and I have found that I am so full of SUBSTANCE (goodness, full of untold stories), if I am awake in my moments and meet people I want to have a lasting effect on them, I want them to say because of that lady I have a deeper understanding of myself because she asked me a challenging question, because she shared a little bit of herself with me, not to be seen but for me to draw strength from.

It dawned on me that God has many facets, and if I have so many facets that I am busy discovering that it is OK because I have been made in God’s image and what He possess I possess. It also dawned on me and so truly there, that we are all where we are at because of the decisions we have made, and that in its essence is so powerful, it can cripple me/you or you and I can decided to accept it and pave a way for a better tomorrow. Just as in the past I made decisions and choices that influenced my life in a negative way, so I can start today to make better choices for a better tomorrow, I can't change my past it is what it is!

I can however influence my future with the decisions I make today…

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