Expressions of Myself

These messages this week has really been speaking to my soul and having me reflect and realize that YES finally after all the "stuff" that I had to work through and emotions that I have had to process over a period of YEARS. Yes YEARS 'CAUSE IT SIMPLY ISN'T THAT EASY. I can without a doubt say that... I am HAPPY , Happy about ME, Happy about my life, HAPPY that I had to let a whole lot of people go in order for ME to immerse!! Thank You Lord!! I learned in this time that not everyone that I have encountered in my life will stay, some will leave because their season has ended in my life and I have learned that I will be OKAY without them. I am now in a better place and the best decision I have made was to fall in-love with myself, love myself, take care of myself and speak up for myself. I am HAPPY!!

It’s mid June and I am still busy!! From preparing for exams before May, to adjusting again because exams were postponed by two more weeks and so I could get some orders done. In the midst of it all I tried hard to NOT take knitting orders however I failed dismally always pushing to get the next order out and keeping my customers happy. However as much as I love studying and knitting it can get to me immensely and then I just leave everything. I have my tantrum for a day and the next day I am ready to get a move on because life doesn’t stand still it’s constantly moving from one thing to another and orders still needs to be delivered! Yesterday I felt so despondent because I have been challenged by two of my daughters and their behavior towards me of late and I just felt like breaking down and crying because the more I ask them to do things that they know they are to do , the more they are just non-responsive to me and I lost it. Yes I lost it! My commonness came out a...

About a month and a bit ago I was asked by a friend Gerald if I knitted scarves as well and initially I thought he was inquiring about himself and I then tagged him in a few Neckwarmer pics that I have made before however he was not inquiring for himself he was however inquiring about 50 scarves for homeless people. Initially I was a bit apprehensive and I told him I will pray about it and get back to him. However prior to him asking me about this project I had already been seeking God about something I wanted t o do and Gerald’s ministry would benefit from it however I only shared this with Gerald once we had agreed to me making the 50 scarves. After I said yes I was like Lord “HOW?” How am I going to make these scarves and on top of it I need to study to prepare for exams. That is when I asked Gerald what is my time frame and he said “Mid June” and I was like “OK”.  I did tell him that I am in the midst of my exams. Soon after that my Mom said she will donate 10 scarves ...

I started my natural hair journey started way before in 2009 however in 2012 when my hair started falling out after I gave birth to our last born Sai. I couldn't understand the hair loss and one day I just decided to cut off all.my hair to kinda even it out. I then went to a hairdresser to have it shaped and I have never looked back. I loved how my hair curled naturally and I began to embrace my new found natural hair. Although I stopped straightening my hair I still did some heat styling here and there.but for the most part I just did the "wash and go". I used conditioner for my hair and nothing else. So from 2012 - mid 2016 conditioner was my styling product. I didn't even know that Aunty Jackie's existed. A lady named Gillian Joy Titus introduced me to the Cape Town Naturally group and that same lady told me about Aunty Jackie's and since that time I have been exploring with product. I have also since tried Curl Chemistry for my hair and my...