Expressions of Myself

I have been thinking of this notion where one just settle for the norm, settle for mediocre, mediocre simply means of ordinary or moderate quality, neither good nor bad; barely adequate in other words not making it, so why is it that we settle for “mediocre” when we are called to be much more than that, we are more than over comers, yet we stay in our “comfort” because we are scared of stepping into the unknown, scared to not be in control, why do we wreck our brains over being in control? We are not meant to be in control that is God's territory, all He wants us to do is follow His ways and leave the rest up to Him. He has already worked things out for us the bible says that “he knew us even before we were formed in our mother’s wombs”, if He knew that why can’t we just give Him the benefit of the doubt? I know because we feel inadequate of this crazy indescribable love He has for us that is explained right through the Bible. There is one quote that is so near and dear to my heart...

So right about now I am raw with emotion, emotion of failure but yet it’s not failure, yesterday I had the opportunity of going to pass out for my Driver’s license and you know I didn’t make it however God swung things around so quickly and allowed me to take a deep breath, yes I cried for a few minutes, I had two strangers with me but they really were my two angels that God loaned to me in my time of need, my goal was not accomplish but it’s not the right time, you see I could carry on and have a pity party and beat myself up over it all, but I didn’t!! I went to the Driver’s appointment, I started out right but yesterday was not my day, I get the feeling that all I had to do yesterday was scope out the territory, see what I am up against because next time around I am so going to be prepared reminds me of the story of Nehemiah in chapter 2:1-10 Where he went to check out the area where they were to rebuild the wall and he then had a better idea of how to go about it all, he was busy p...

I  wrote this on the16-03-2010 it is basically a continuation of the previous blog just thought I would share this too, enjoy!! Today I am so feeling the Holy Spirit and I am doing so much reflection on my life and my walk with God, at times I do feel as if I am lukewarm because the little I do is little in my eyes but it does at times make a huge impact unbeknown to me. Have you ever felt that you are the one doing all the things where friendships are concern? I do and I still feel like it daily but at times it does drain me and then I need to do some spring cleaning in my friendship cupboard it’s hard hey! Sometimes I get to a point where I feel that I am more reliant on my friendships than my friends because it feels like they are my sound board and I just bounce stuff off them, funny, but true. Ever had a conversation with someone and you ask a question and then you end up answering the question isn’t it weird?  That happens to me all the time; I g...

They say you can’t choose your family but you can choose your friends, which brought on this thought, I have had to let go of friendships which was one draining, abusive(when I say abusive I mean, friends that abuse your time with their drama and all they can talk about is there drama and you just have to listen, mind you I have been a friend like that who just carried on talking about my life and how my life is messed up and how I want my life to change, sad to say I was extremely selfish at one point) that is of course before I knew that I can control what I say and what I let in my ears, now we all need friends, yes we do, but we need to be alert and we need to really choose our friendships wisely, to me a true friend is someone who knows your heart and not just you, a true friend is someone who will be there when you need them and tell you what is right regardless of how you are feeling emotionally because they want the best for you. Since I have cleared out my friendship cupboard ...

I have been doing quite a lot of reflection in my life and also closing doors that were not good for me and it is at times easier to fall back in habit than to follow through and do what is right, but then I am reminded of the scripture “Obedience is better than sacrifice”, I don’t know if you have ever heard about Francis Chan a pastor of Cornerstone Church in Simi Valley, South California, I have been listening and watching a lot of his video pod casts and   audio’s and I have been taken of a journey of self discovery, this man is such an awesome man of God and he speaks the truth of God as it stands in the Bible and it is so real. One of his quotes that has had me thinking was this: "I believe He wants us to love others so much that we go to extremes to help them." Francis Chan When I was reading this I was thinking of the scripture that says “Love your neighbor as yourself” and I realized that to love my neighbor as myself I would have had to gone through a process where...

I have been thinking alot, alot about these two words "second chances", who deserves a second chance and what does this second chance mean, second chance in life second chance in making a relationship work, second chance to do your job the best way you can, second chance to give your best in everything you do, but how practical and achievable is it? Pretty easy I would say given the chance of course, cause what happens when  you are not going to be given a second chance at a relationship? what happens when you don't get the second chance you have been praying for? what happens when you only have this one chance right now, to make your life anew, to start afresh and call this your "second best chance", I can deal with that!! So here is the deal how much do you want a second chance, first and foremost if you want it bad enough you will go after it with all that you are and you will not, I repeat you will not let anything or anyone get in your way, becaus...